Tuesday, February 17, 2015

That Kind of Love that Never Fails...

Yes. I am a cheeseball. This is pretty old school, but I've kept this song close to my heart... Celine Dion's "Because You Love Me" is my mental checklist of "How Love Should Be" in my own sappy belief... It's like that Bible Verse: I Corinthians 13:1-13. I'm not religious but I believe in this verse too. Sometimes I get too carried away with my emotions that I forget what love is. It's been a while even that I've looked at this verse... I just realized. Well, let me just put it here as part of my life notes (and Adobe Photoshop practice hehe)

I Corinthians 13:1-13

Saturday, February 07, 2015

Tracy's Dear Diary: The Hello-Goodbye's of 2015

January 1, 2015 ~ We write our 絵馬 prayers for the 2015... Saying Hello's and Goodbye's entering 2015!

It feels ancient going back here. Hello, I'm back to attempt writing again. I must admit that this is not the first time I've tried but failed on writing here. The wounds cuts so deeply that I am not ready to speak yet... Or perhaps, I was not ready to speak in coherent form... I rant when it was too painful and I cry defeatedly until I fall asleep or get sick for the past couple of months. I don't write to be a downer, this is my only form of assertive release... Writing and reflecting helps me assess myself in a few years timeline or so... I want to remember my heart's desires and I want to look back at my life how far different I've changed or managed to stay the same. It's a humbling and fulfilling feeling for me.

Tiara by Tracy Dizon on the Digital Cover of Preview Magazine (Dec. 2014 - Jan. 2015) #MarianForPreview

Preview Magazine (Philippines)

Digital cover 1 of 3 of Marian Rivera for Preview Magazine 
December 2014 - January 2015 Issue, wearing different designer gowns for every kind of bride-to-be.

Despite my personal turmoil of 2014, my year ended with such a great blessing and surprise! Tiara by Tracy Dizon is honoured to be a part of Preview Magazine's very special December 2014/January 2015 Issue featuring the blushing-bride-to-be (then) Marian Rivera... And it's not only a small blurb! Tiara by Tracy Dizon Dizon even made it to one of the 4 Digital Covers of the very special #MarianForPreview Issue!

It was such a lovely surprise indeed, I never expected I would ever be a part of a grand celebrity wedding hype and I couldn't be any more grateful and blissful! I saw my headpiece on one of Preview Magazine's IG Teaser Photos and I knew it was mine! Whaaaaa! I'm so kilig!! This is also my first Preview Feature!! This is one great achievement! Thank you, Preview Creative Team!

Tuesday, February 03, 2015

My Own "Teenage Dream"

Katy Perry's Teenage Dream will always be a special song in my heart... I used to play it on loop in full blast in my small and simple Samsung Corby cellphone as I take my 1 hour jeep commute on my way to my production house and hat makers. It was a simple life then... I prepare my son on his way to school, take a little nap and start the day with much designs and hands-on work... Go to Divisoria, deliver some designs, I was functional and fulfilled.

I had to listen to it on loop... Over and over again because I have to convince myself. I want to believe... and it did. It made me believe that LOVE can be so powerful you are not afraid to make mistakes, I want to believe in a love that is so brave to jump... Being a person with a heavy past, many mistakes and many disgusting trolls I have to meet... I need to believe that I can still find a love that will make me feel unbroken again. 

That's what you brought into my life, Katy Perry... Hope and Forgiveness... Hope I can fall in love again that I will be carefree... FREE! Love can make you feel free and learn to forgive myself from the dark wounds of my past. Everyone makes mistakes and as long as we are alive, we can make a fresh start.